Why Do I Write?

Why do I write?

books2To sell books? I do, a few here and there. I do better in small ponds like ARe/OmniLit and B&N.

The news, with each passing day, indicates that my path is one that seems fraught with peril and quite possibly leads nowhere.




To win critical acclaim? I’ve won awards, as author and publisher. I don’t talk about it – no reason in particular, it just doesn’t seem pertinent.



screaming-beatles-fans11To win a fan base of readers? Yes and no. I see sales, I can watch book 1, then 2 and 3 sell, but I rarely get reviews, though on occasion someone leaves a comment on my website or emails me, telling me how much my words meant. But not on Amazon or B&N. I’ve yet to figure out why. Maybe ‘just because’ has to be good enough, mostly because *how* I write isn’t for everyone.

Magic bookTo engage in a magical process? Yes, but in some ways it’s just mental masturbation. The process is at once unique and shared amongst all who strive to create. At what point do affect and effect cancel each other out?




Then why do I write?

A week ago, I didn’t know Jace McClune or Nick Lopez. When I opened the blank page in Word, I heard clanging (sometimes it’s a knock, most times they just walk right in unannounced) and the disgraced undercover vice cop, Jace, glowered at me. We stared at each other for a long time, then I shut my eyes and found his head space and wrote the first words. In the meantime, Nick, an ex-cop from Miami was headed north to help a mutual friend I’d gotten to know well.

We’ve Jerking-Iron-webbeen together for a week. I am still learning how each man ticks, scribbling their story as fast as I can.

Some days I get it right, some days I don’t. But they never quit on me.

So how can I quit on them?


PS: You can follow along as I post FREE chapters HERE

About Nya Rawlyns

Crossing boundaries, taking no prisoners. Write what’s in your soul. It’s the bass beat, the heartbeat, the lyrics rude and true. Nya Rawlyns is the pseudonym of a writer who cut her teeth on sports-themed romantic comedy and historical romances before finding her true calling in the wilderness areas she has visited but calls “home” in that place that counts the most: the heart. She has lived in the country and on a sailboat on the Chesapeake Bay, earned more than 1000 miles in competitive trail and endurance racing, taught Political Science to unwilling freshmen, and found an avocation in materials science. When she isn’t tending to her garden or the horses, the cats, or two pervert parakeets, she can be found day dreaming and listening to the voices in her head.
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